I haven't posted much, of late, in part because with the end of the semester I kept trying to remind myself not to get distracted on projects (like writing my heart out) that didn't relate to prepping for finals or finishing my term paper, and the other part because my laptop recently went kaput and I'm too poor to fix it at the moment.

Things with ( Read more... )

This previous post was important to post so that this one would even make sense. Lol, I write a lot more drafts than I get around to finishing and publishing, sadly.

I wrote, several months ago, about a part of me that appeared to be Lost in Slumber. I keep neglecting to post fully on these developments, even though I seem almost giddy at times ( Read more... )

I spent most of today (or yesterday, depending on how you count) cleaning up my room and finally found my old journal that CJ made me buy and start writing in, so that I could get my thoughts out and talk about bdsm in a way that was comfortable for me and didn’t necessarily require forcing words out of my mouth, which at the time was hard. (It’s ( Read more... )

Agreed I, to this, a self-contained disaster
of bruising my heart against yours
and make of you a bed of thorns
to lie myself upon, blooded by tender embrace

My buds have all gone to seed
left me open and unguarded
A surprise, this, to taste of fear without
beating a hasty retreat to stoic shelter

What make it easier to be less afraid, today, to
catch ( Read more... )

I had one of those really odd, and perhaps ill-timed, moments this evening. Scott and I were fooling around and playing, and all of a sudden a few pieces fell into place in my brain, and it occurred to me how truly very... messed up, Dilan was about some things.

When we were still trying to talk things out shortly before I left, we were talking ( Read more... )

I have a new favorite hobby. Though, really, it's not really anything "new", so much as "newly actualized."

I spent another evening tonight being willingly bound up in rope (cotton this time, last time was hemp), that included tying around my ponytail and pulling my elbows back behind me. It was an interesting tie (I don't have the pictures handy at ( Read more... )

I think I may have hit my body's physical limits over the course of this weekend and the activities from my last post.

This morning I woke up so late to work, that I was late when I woke up, and scrambled just to get there in time to get the lights on and let the customers in. No good!!! All day I felt run down and tired, and it eventually ( Read more... )

I've been keeping myself pretty damned busy lately.

Thursday night I went out ice-skating with a good friend from back in my NWN days who is visiting the area, followed by coffee for chatting which meant I got pretty much no sleep. I was then up at 5:30 yesterday morning to take Lliira out for a jog in a vain attempt to get back into shape. My lower ( Read more... )